Green

I'm green with envy. No wait, let's make that jealousy. That's why I had to buy all these green colored food. Haha. Argh... just kidding. But I did buy all these green stuff a few days ago. Hmmm... I know there are some places I just can't reach. Some mountains I can't climb. Some trust I can never earn. Sometimes I just want to drop everything I'm holding on to and give up. Especially when I ask one simple question and never get an answer. (What the hell does T.O. mean?) No, I'm not that shallow, hindi naman ako nagagalit dahil lang diyan. Hindi naman pala ako galit. It's just that, I thought I got this guy out of the way na... and here comes another guy. Just as rich, even more better looking, and he comes with a rich background of friendship too. Here I am again, thinking. I know bad things happen when I think. But hey, sometimes I just have to make a reality check. I watched "Meet the Fockers" kanina, and know what I realized? I'm not in her circle of trust. We barely know each other, while he's like a second father. We're really far away from each other while he's just one street away from her. I'm working my way through college through the school paper and he's in an exclusive school, paying for a second course. Common! What chance to I have? Sometimes I get sick of playing with fire that its better to be cold and alone. Sometimes I feel really good when I know I'm making someone feel special. But sometimes I get tired when I never get anything in return. Argh! Life does suck, sometimes. I hope better days will come. Wala bang matinong kausap diyan? Where's ninong when you need him?